DEAR BLOG,

Hi everybody.
Im back early today.
Not in th mood to stay out any longer, so i cabbed back home. yup.
Hais.
I rly dno. I rly dont wnar play hide and seek anymore.
Can you just tell me wht's wrong and dont just leave w/o saying anything.
I'm feeling v pekchek now alrd you noe ..
It's not th first time .. i rly dont noe .. Wth are you thinking right now.
Or wth do you want from me, why're doing this to me ..
Making history repeat, making me feel so hurt AGAIN.
For th past 16 yrs of my life, i have nvr been hurt like this before..
Dream dream dream, everytime i dream, it's alws abt you.
Yearning for tht chance to see you agn, & it did happen, in my dreams.
So happy, so happy. i can rly feel th joy & happiness, seriously.
But wtf? Wake up, & it's all just a fucking dream.
Everything's gone.
You're playing me, So is god.
Wtf did i do wrong in my last life ..
Yes i cried. i finally cried.
Aft 17 days, i cant hold back my tears anymore.
Alright.
Today, rly made me think alot. Ever since i went out, and came home.
I thot alot today.
I love my friends, truly.
Oh and i fgt to mention, thankyou my dearest daughter inessa for your gift.
Okay, i love you inessa, dom, baldric, mk, kenny, jon, kianwei, teckcheng, kwong, nelson, renyong, chingyung, jinqiang.
No matter how dulan u all make me before, or whether u all make me angry before, i rly wnar thank you all.
Th fun, joy and laughter u brought to me.
Seriously, i have thot abt it.
If it wasnt for you all, i wont be who i am now.
Wad if i dont have friends like u all, wad will i be like now.
Thanks you all for tolerating my stubborn-ness, attitude probs, bossiness, selfishness & all other stuffs tht u all dont like me doing.
Thanks you all for alws giving in to me, letting me do th things i want, letting me make th decisions whn we go out tgt.
Thanks you all for keeping me company whn im feeling down, whn im bored, & whn i needed you all.
You all have alws been thr for me at th 1st min.
Thanks for everything ..
Being th only girl in our clique, i noe it's quite hard to have the same thinking and all those.
& quite hard for you all to do stuffs. like play lan or wad.
Yah, thanks.
Special thanks to my dearest bro, dom & baldric :D
Thanks dom who alws stood by me for 1yr plus alrd.
& thanks baldric, who alws make me happy w/o fail everyday, though it wasnt intentional. lol.
Yes, dont worry dearests! im not writing this cos i xiang bu kai ._.
I wont commit suicide k. lol.
If i rly want to, my post wont write abt this only liao.
I just rly wnar thank you all.
For tolerating me all this while. Cos im a girl, who's rly hard to handle.
I noe it myself. laughs~
Hmmm. I guess i shud end here alrd.
I dont have anymore energy.
I need some rest, peace, & quiet time.
Goodbye, Love <3

yours truly @ 10:58 PM